18.1.07
Thursday
me and my new best friend Syahirah...
Many things happened yesterday.....I was in my emo shitty mood when i saw him again.....And i think i suffered from temporary insanity....Bestie say that i behave like a siao siao now......Dont ask me what is that suppossed to mean......cause i am unsure of it myself......but yes i think i am hay-wired now.......I dont feel alright at all......I was like jumping up and down and around and what have you.......Super reluctant to pass the things to him cause i dont want it to be the last meeting but alas i gave and he show no expression at all.....I am like super heart broken.....Could have cry the shits out of myself......My friends think i am stupid like why do i still bother about all this but its solely because i still have feelings for him......Like really if you do not like your guy/girl anymore would you go to such a length......Life is just not so fair......we barely talk for 1 minute....and its like the only answer i got was orh.... T.T i have countless things to say.....and i even wanted to hug him but all that did not happen.....Like all of a sudden my mind when * poof * i dont know what to say anymore......some people tell me that probarly he gotten himself a new girl ?? but thats like impossible cause just days before we are still so happy.....Than bestie came up with many stupid ideas like maybe he gotten some illness than dont want me to suffer with him....Like abit drama leh...Ok back to the topic i hope you read the book cause i wrote down so many thoughts and feelings about what had happen in that 6 mths plus.....Haiz.....
Thank you BESTIE !! Like thank you so so much....If its not for you i think i will be like the emo emo girl again...thanks for cheering me up... (:
Today
Nearly fainted during PE....arrgh.....must be because i never eat my dinner yesterday and probarly also due to my low blood pressure that i nearly fainted......MI's Pe is so 'hiong'...really very tough....Must run....Do tuck jumps....Jumping jacks....Crunches and blah blah blah.....Somemore is everything do 2 sets....but we heng already heard that the guys have to do 3 sets......For me is like do 1 set already dying le...cause the day before i already not feeling well and than no appetite to eat thought that i can last till break time but in the end.....Mind suddenly went blank......teacher ask me dont do than sit in front like arrgh so pai seh.........I see people do i also want join cause i am the only one sitting in front.....after i feel better than join them again.....like arrgh my muscle are aching now.......But yeah at last i gotten do some proper excerise.....Fats Fats go away !!
Happy/sad/angry/me?
