23.8.06
SeriousLy i dOnt kNow wHy i sUDdenly brOke doWn.....i feeL reAlly strEssed Up......And sAd tO sAy wHEn i fAll, You aRen't TherE tO catCh mE......WheN i reAlly Need YOu, i cAnt feeL YoU besIDe mE...bUT i caNt blAme You caUSe wE dOnt reAlly gEt tO meet oFten aND sO wE dOnt reAlly kNow abOut eaCh oTher lIves....i aM aLReaDy oN thE vErGe oF breaKing dOWn.....I am oNly lEft with 10% Of My enErgY...l feeL lIke gIVing it ALL uP.....I cANt caTch Up wITh mY oWn bReaTh.....Not tO saY YourS.....I haVe Not eNOugH eNergY lEft le......So pLEase saVe ME sOme.....ThiS JourNEy haS NevEr beeN a SmooTh oNe.....aND i aM reallY reAlly vEry tiRed Now....aND i kNow YOu aRe tOO.....ITs bEeN sO toUgH....i haTe HidIng bUt i haVe No cHoICe....ThiS dAys, I brEak dOwn mOre oFteN thAn i usuAlly dO....haiz.......GotTen hAve sOme sElf cOntrOl oF eLSe mY teArs wiLL aLL bE uSed uP......haiZ....I reAlly reAlly neeD Him....He iS mY oNly soUrcE oF StreNgTh aND eNergY aND YEt.....NevErmInd....He caNt bE thEre foR ME aLL thE tiME.....
It caN gEt reAlly sicKeNiNg tO wAit aLL thE tiMe sO IF ONe dAy.....thE vEry faTefUL daY...... yOu aRe siCk oF aLL thIS.....teLL me...i wiLL uNDerstaND aND lEt You gO.....i wiLL nOt bE seLfisH aND trY to keeP yOu....For i kNow......wHen thAt daY cOme, yOu alReady haD eNougH......
SorrY fOR aLL tHE emo-neSs...i caNt cOntroL my eMotIOns....i feeL thE neeD tO blOg aND jUSt thRow tHeM aLL oUt....sO bEar wIth me.....OR raTher You mAy coNsidEr Not reADing iF It bORes You......ProbArbly aFtEr My sePteMbEr HolidaYs, i wiLL nOT bE bLoggIng or oNLine-iNg sO oFteN....i reAlly nEed to stuDy.......i mUSt pAss........
[ The stress from parents can be so unbearable.....more often than not, i cried because of whatever they say.....i wish for them to be understanding....and i wish that you are there for me ]
Enough said.
Happy/sad/angry/me?
