14.6.06
haiZ....i wiSh thAt i aM nOt sO fiCklE mInded...i wish thAt soMetiMEs i haVe mY oWn staND anD nOt juSt swAy wiTh thE wiNd....bUT dOinG whAt i haVe dOne anD chAnging iT agAin woUld OnlY dO mOre haRm thAn goOd...wEll iTs bEen 8 daYs siNce wE laSt taLK to eaCh othEr oN thE pHone....aND i kInda mISs heaRing hIs vOice...Ahh...stuPid giRl....Do YOU reAlly lIKe HIM ??? Yes..i haVe to adMit...buT thEre iS jUSt sOme thIngs thAt keeP preVentiNg mE frOm doiNg sO...
YEstErdAy aFtEr i fInaLLy fOund thE cOuragE to taLk to hIm....caUSe i tHougHt hE alReaDy kNow mY bLog add aFtEr i gaVe hIm...buT thInk hE goNg...dont kNow thAT is blOg add sO i gaVe hIm agAin...wOnder diD hE reAd iT caUSe afTer awHile, He rEtuRn a sMs....haiZ....Ahh....whY iS hE sO gOOd tO mE deSpite oF whAt i haVe saID aND doNe etC...aCtuAlly i seCreTly wIsh thAt evErYtiMe soMeoNe MSg mE iT woUld bE hIm...anD whEn iTs nOt...i gEt kINda fusTratEd....Ahh....aND thIs feeLing iS stiLL thEre desPite a weeK plUS haVe goNe...Stupid giRl !!! Ahh.....i aM gEttIng fUStrated oF mYself tOO...cAnt i jUSt maKE uP mY mInd anD jUSt fOlloW iT...WHY muSt i kEeP chAngIng hEre anD thEre....Ahh....i gEttIng siCk anD tIred oF aLL thIs....i wAnna giVe uP anD FoRgEt evErytHing anD jUSt mOve on...bUT ...i cAnt dO it...
Am i Happy afTer i sOrta reject Him ??? Nope....i dOnt feeL haPPy aT aLL... i feeL evEn mOre fuStrAted aND IrrItated witH thE things arOund me....i feeL lOSt....haiZ...
i feel so so lOSt....whAt shOuld i dO ???
Happy/sad/angry/me?
