18.6.06
For thE fIRst tIme iN mY 16 yEars...i kNeeL doWn aND prAy in chuRCh...i wAs HappY aND pRouD aT thE sAme tiMe...in cHurCh iN thE seCtiOn wHere i aM sIttEd...i guEss thEre iS oNlY lEss thAn 30 PeoPle KneeLing doWn aND pRay...sO i gUEss i fElt sPecIAl...iN a sEnse i feLt cLosEr to God aLL oF a sUddEn...EvEn tHougH mY lEg NuMb afTer a fEw minUteS oF KneeLing...i fElt tHAt todAy prAyEr wAs KInda sHort...maYbe caUse i wAs rAthEr aWakE...In thE pAst wHEn i prAyed sIttIng doWn, thE dUratIOn oF thE praYEr seeMs sO mUch loNger...evEn thougH iTs mereLy 10 minS oR a sLiGhtly mOre..bUT toDay it seeMs to oNly laSt 5 mIns...hmm...I LOVE CHURCH....IT maKEs mE cloSer to GOD...i wiSh i wAs iN Youth FeLLowShip...bUt Now iTs tOO laTe...haiZ...MeMoriEs cAme fLuttEring baCk....``whee...bOy wAs i haPPy thAT toDaY wE mSg so mUCh....NevErmInd aboUt haVinG to pAy iF i eXcEed mY mSg...caUSe its wOrTH iT...YES...wortH iT...LotS oF bEen sAid....aND woAh...tRyiNg to maKE mE JeaLouS yA...wEll...i aM...bUt iF You rEally wAnt...i doNt mInd...i shOuLd sAy i tRy not tO mInd..tHougH i mInd...Ahh...wtH aM i taLking....hmm..wOndEr wHy hE wAnts My bEst fRieND NUmBer...woNder whAt hE wAnts to dO wITh iT ? MaybE a MiraCle wiLL haPPen wHo kNows...maYbe sOmedAy...at thE riGht moMenT wHEn i gOne sOT...hmm...wHAtEvEr...
aND thE darKneSs gUy wHo aDd mE iN MSn....He's wEird....wOndEr whO He iS...i Only kNow thAt hE's sEc 4....aTtaChed wiTh a gIRl fRom regeNt seC...dO nOt stUdy puRe sCi...aND thE laSt tiME i taLK to hIm wAs thIs yeAr...whO HE iS ....hE dO nOt wANt tO teLL mE...bUt hE seeM to bE a frIeNDly pErsOn...Seem...caUSe hE tEll mE thAT iF i haVe aNy trOubLE OR wHAtEvEr i coulD jUSt tEll hIm..bUT duh!! oF courSe i saID nOne..i dont kNow who hE iS hOw coUld i pOssIbly tEll a straNgEr aboUt mY lIFe...Ahh..wAHtEvEr....whAtEvEr wHAtEver...hE sAY thAt hE woUld oNly reVeAl whO hE iS onLy afTer O lEvEl...thAts iS lIke sO freAKing lOng...
wAtCh thE cHanneL u sHow aboUt thE dAddy one...aT 9....sO sweeT thAT sHow...DAD thE greAteSt.....gAve thAT thE preSent...gUEss HE sHouLD bE kInda sUrpRise fOR iN thE pAst wE dOnt usUAlly giVe thAt preSent...Only Mom...so haHa...wAS glAd HE Like IT...DeSpitE mE sOmetiMEs gEt IrrITatEd wITh daD....Yupp i kNow wHAtEvEr hE done iS fOR uS....sO i sHouLD lEarN tO appreCiatE....aND stoP cOmplaIninG....Xp
tHE sweeteSt MemoRies You caN eVer giVe mE iS tO saY ' I LOVE YOU '.....
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