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You brOke My heaRt...You reAlly brOke MY heart tHis tIme...i crIed...I crIed fOr tHE 2nd tIme sInce I kNow You..bUT tHis tIme iT wAs beCaUSe oF a dIffeRent reAson... Now thAt i haVe sOrt out my feeLiNGs aND HEre YOU aRe dOInG thIs tO me...Arrgh...Yi Lin...tEll ME teLL mE sLAp mE IF You sHouLD..sLAp sOme sEnse iN mY heaD...wHAt sHould i dO nExt...i reAlize after wHAt aLL thIs haD haPpen tHaT in aCtuAl faCt i dO noT care abOut whAteVer ThE otHEr tHings aRe...tEll Me whAt sHould i dO ? wHEn He sAy aLL tHAt tO me i cAn reAlly feeL The heArtbreAk aNd evErytHIng ..For Him i reAlly dOnt kNow...The wAY He beHaveS iS lIke a littLE sAd aNd thAn Like nOt sAd HE reAlly cOnfuseD mE..bUt aNYwAy he still sAy tHose tHings tHAt i reAlly dont wAnt tO gO recAll or even reMeMber...Wah...thAn hE put On hIs nICk 'dui pu qi...wo piAn le Ni de gAn qiNg'... a wHile LAter hE wEnt offLine..dAmn i NevEr eVen NotICe his Nick UntiL hE wEnt offLine..DiD nOt SEe IT beFoRe tHAt cAusE i wAs busy tYpiNg tHoSe tHingy..So NevEr sEe iT..wAh i wAs liKE sO sAd...tHink i tOo eMo..bUT haIZ..tHAts mE a emo girL...tHAn afTer thAt i go aND cHAnge mY nicK sAy 'You brOke Me heart...i NevEr evEn xian qi YOU..you jiu no confidence le'...blah blah blah ~~ thaN He laTer aSk Me gO And cHAnge...i sAy he gO cHAnge i thAn cHAnge..tHAn tHE nICk hE cHange mAke Me feeL evEn mOre dAmn sAd....hE cHaNge tO ' wo de qing xu wu fa kong zhi...wo de tong ku wu ren zhi - i dont nid the chance..i dont deserve it...' hiaZ...i feeL Like BASHING HIM UP..asK hIm chAnge sHould bE chAnge tO haPpiEr SOMethIng mOre PositIVe aT leAst..eNd Up chAnge alSo liKe No diffErEnt.....Yi Lin..Now i reAlly dONt Know If Your dreAm wiLL cOme tRue aNymORe...haiZ...iM dAmn sAd....How i sUper wiSh tHAt i nevEr sAid tHose wOrds ...Yi Lin Kill Me Pls...i reAlly sHould Not sAy tHAt i sAw it....Yi Lin...ahhh....heLp Mi..saVe me...i reAlly dont kNow wHAt i sHould dO neXt...i tRied My vEry beSt verY verY de best tO saVe tHe sitUatIon...but haIZ....weLL i jUSt sMs hIm...cAuse i reALly cAnnot StaNd it AnyMOre...Yi Lin..see i reAlly got tRy reALly i gOT....Yi Lin..arggh...i mesSAge sO suPer long ...3 page...3 page...telling whAtever i reALly cAnnot KeeP AnyMOre iN mY heaRt....i feeL tHAt tHis is JUSt life..wHen You dOnt Need tHAt sOmeOne..tHAt sOmeOne wiLL be Like beHind cHasIng You lIke MAd...bUt wHEn You reAlly neeD tHAt time..tHE sOmeOne wiLL be alrEady rUnnIng awAy frOm You...sO yA...tHInk nOw ITs My tUrn tO cHAse....wHAt He rePly Me sO dAmn sAd cAn..arrgH....Why Must tHings eNd uP iN sUCh a mAnner.....I reAlly dOnt know What i sHould dO...Yi Lin...teLL me sHould i gIve Up afTer wHAtevEr we haD wEnt tHroUgh ? sHould I ?? Or sHould I stILL cOntInue aNd haNg ON aNd stAy On ? I am ConfUSed...tHis tIme iN a dIffereNt seNse...i hAVe cHosEn My paTh aNd i reALly wAnt it tHAt wAy ..HAiZ....ActUally you alSo kNow thAt i havE SeeN how he lOOk Like Long agO rIGht...aND yOu see iF i reAlly wAnt tO xiAn qi hIm i sHould hAve dOne tHAt LoNg tIme agO..haIZ...i wOuld nOt haF wAIt Until Now riGht... haIZ... si huan dan make mI crY...i maKE sure he pAys mI baCk mY teArs... * sob *
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