7.2.06
HiaZ..i feeL so strEss..i hate SeC 4 liFe..i JuS simPlY haTe it..i DunnOe buT wE uSe 2 b sO clOsE cAn..BuT thInGs hAve Jus ChaNge withOut mY knOwing aNd i dUn eVeN enJoY a Wee bIt Of iT.....ManY thOugHts wEnt thRougH mY miND As iM wrItiNg or lEt juS saY tyPing thIs..My uSe 2 b BeSt frEn hAd loNg gOne...MY uSe 2 b CloSe buDd..WheRe aRe u wEn i neeDed moSt yOu wouLd juS leaVe me And wEetEnG everYtIme hOw wouLd yOu exPeCt uS 2 unDerStaND yoU all..Is iT bCos oF oUr inteLliGenCe gaP..anD thAt u all aRe pUre so wE wonT knOw wHat yoU aLL aRe toKinG aBout ? I reAllY haTe tO SeE thIs kiP on GoinG on i atteMpt aNd wEetEng too trIed but whAt respOnseS did wE gEt ? I reAllY wiSh yOu aLL ArE aBle to reAd mY PosT buT i dUn tiK yOu aLL wIlL de...YoU juS leFt us At tHe baCk seAt...iS thIs waT u call fRenS 4eVa ? iF tat is It... mAyb i shLd jus shUt my GaP.. BuT i reAllY haTe 2 c iT fAllinG apaRt..i triEd tO aCt norMal liKe i dUn cAre buT do yOu tiK tAt is It..i dunnoe...Now i reAllY douBt mY feelIngS..We uSe 2 toK alOT but noW looK wE baRelY ToK 10 senTencEs or MayB 20 seNtenCes... eVeryTimE e 2 oF u All..dO thiNGs osO neVeR teLL uS..hEy ! gEt thiS riTe iF yOu all Dun wAnnA cAre anyThiNg aBouT thIs friEndShip deN lEt juS enD it wiF beauTifUl memoRieS k..NoT Wif thOugHTs of hOw sTreSsfuL aNd paiNfuL it Is..If iT hAs bEen suCh a PaiN..Let uS knW..we cAn chAnge nOt as iF We aRe thOse whO dUn liStEn 2 coMmenTs...Ahhh !!! im So StreSs up...i dunnOe i feLt so muCh paIn in ThiS frIendsHIp...i thInk we hAd pUt up aloT of mAsK in tHis friendshIp buT whO am I ? A giRl wiF no poweRs 2 chAngE reaLitY...wAt cAn i do ? HaiZ....i reallY despeRateLy niD a guardIaN angEl 2 guiDe mi 2 e RitE paTh...[[ DeAr Lord..pLs seNd mi One riTe nw ..pLs ]]AssigMenTs...AssigNmentS...and morE assiGnmentS ...My bRaiN ceLls all dieD le..cAnt evEn unDerstAnd that stupId diffErenTiatIoN chPt..Ahh..im dYinG..deSpEratEly neeD heLp...FOCUS 2daY ouR fiRst leSSon aNd i wAs alMoSt dyiNg...DiD reAllY baDLy i guEss...My scoRe wAs liKe onlY 20/35...wth is WiF mi nw DayS ? wHy am i Nt perForminG uP tO stanDard ? Y????? i reAllY waN 2 hAf aN answEr 2 tAt...i tRieD mY beSt le.bUt y stiLL enD uP liKe tAt...HaiZ....i ProMise mySeLF 2 woRk reallY haRd bUt dEn i Dun TiK it woRk..i guEss mayB i juS didn't trY harD enuF..tAt iS e onLi reasOn i wAn 2 tIk of tO comFort mySelf...Haiz...
[[ Lord pleaSe giVe mi e strengtH aNd poWer 2 geT thiNgs riGht where it shouLd be ]]
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